woke up 4 hours before my alarm open the blinds to check on the stars still there good was it all a dream nah can’t sleep for a whole two weeks just landed, back in kansas one day completely spent on a mattress day before completely spent on plane 2 weeks every day get wrecked but stay saved yo, life changed and it only gets better turbulence had to be sweating for shelter but it’s out of my control so don’t get it twisted when we visit i admit my stories may be limited chonburi full of people so precious chang mai changed my perceptions gonna need some prayer intersessions just to stop this post trip depression follow your calling don’t fall follow your calling don’t fall follow your calling don’t fall for the same old same old don’t stall need an opportunity to grow it’s 6 am jet lag go slow writing this rap on my first day back to work hope i can still go with the flow follow your heart you might never get home follow your heart you could die alone follow my heart just to see where it goes if God leads me then let these other doors close good Lord i’m still praying for direction these missionaries given me the message the way they sing these songs in thailand i know that it’s all in your hands what would it be like to dedicate my life to service out of country out of reach out of sight I feel like I’m called but it’s only a whisper take these headphones off my ears to hear clearer 2'00 and ever since i landed back in kansas i feel stranded love my family love this country love the music love the rapping but it so happens that i’m passive with my passions so i’m asking how i can change this stance into something massive can you imagine, a life without sadness i imagined not showing up to work i imagined that i never left Thailand and FaceTime my parents to tell em i wouldnt return i imagined not seeing my family for months and not saving up money for an xbox one and the only time that bae ever sees my face is through snapchats i can only send every other day i imagined being too busy to record mix tapes or listen to the latest release from lecrae or missing Westbrook get triple double games but maybe thats something i would gladly give away if i but the same old same old still takes it’s toll looking in the mirror just to see how it shows nah i hide it, i’m quiet but in the inside it’s a tsnami Goliath type giant chonburi full of people so precious chang mai changed my perceptions I look to you to give the directions Lord lead my life and never let the love lessen

the sun moon and stars collided when you opened up your eyelids like blue ice and the green seaside islands mixed with the pure cut shining of diamonds reminded that i could get lost in your gaze but why would i ever look away I navigate this maze like i’m Theseus this string just leads back to you so mischivious the easiest path laid out in the suns shade i’d rather stand with you in the sun rays winter days icey catch my breath when i see you wind blowing sharp as my heart beats when i’m with you the hidden treasure the world could not corrupt you are my only dream that this world didn’t crush you are my summer in the middle of the freezing cold and this summer will be the best one that we’ve ever known said i love you in swanson park then i held you in my arms nothing could tear us a part i gave you my heart i fell in love by accident didn’t even know it was happening felt like a voyager in uncharted waters but explore a little farther find a life full of wonder abbreviated version wasn’t certain still learning who i am as a person for the person i was searching God pulled back the curtain You were the treasure underneath Like the letters connect in cursive together we’ll always be It’s me and my girl Us vs the world It’s a song that I wrote breathed to life and unfurled I break out of my shell to find that you were my pearl couldn’t script it any better if i was reading my lines i woke up like bellion knew i needed you in my life Girl, you got my head in the clouds and we only headed up but you know it’s going down and this is just the start of it i put all of my heart in it i know you wanted all of it so here check my pulse The beat is just a rhythm That’s taps out my existence As long as your are with it Then it will never dull it won’t pass, hold fast Your hand in my hand All planned with God’s hands he’s never letting go You’ve got my heart Gods got my soul and we just found this treasure map and it don’t lead to gold I view visions of you through this telescope this world try to take me down you were the antidote fascinated when we take it turned from good to greatness goodness gracious, i love you, i’m sorry to keep you waiting i’m just saying your amazing and i aint playing any games all these nights alone but bae i say it’s worth the wait i do say i do but only to you on our day and suddenly forever doesn’t seem so far away

they here for annihilation they need their validation the expect my cooperation you sleep for dreams i stay awake in culture is vulture here for your carcass theres power inside that you could ntharness comfort has always been my kryptonite they say fight to the top, but it's slick as ice tentacles try to tie me down addiction try to dry me out shy kid, you take no L's grap a handful of ash when you go through hell new school rebel old school flow no cool clothes to embellish the show i gave up trying to get them to like me travel the world but not just to sight see they say it's out reach where we try to go this the jump start check the vertical vertical vertical vertical I ain't got time to be rich they talking big dollars they never had sense House full of lies So I ding dong ditch Treat you like the fence When I bring these hits you strike out with that curve ball pitch i’m outta left field when they pop fly quick buck you like a bronco when they pull these tricks then leave a glove at the scene like OJ did insist the serpent wont constrict sliding the scales as they wrap your limbs your mummified and they strap you in you lose your soul but it preserves your skin it’s so dim that you lose your wits this glorified grave we call the pyramid it’s wearing thin this world won’t corrupt me it’s love over all and it’s all or nothing vertical with vertigo we just burning souls burning slow till the curtain close gonna go further, higher, farther that they said we could said we would said we should look we just doing good works this is where metaphor meets the message where achievements look the least impressive where most stumble so you got to be aggressive lets just say that every blemish turned to blessing Let’s just say there was no calling to reach the fallin And we just waste away while they decay inside the coffin We all clawin to see what’s beneath the surface but it’s worthless if we aren’t willing to be all in with our purpose Rather be big baller than t challa Rather slide in a dm then face our problems you could hold me back still on track to counteract your attack this passion put to action is only traction when we jumping at ya

but ever since I landed off this planet I imagined that my dreams were more than dreams and I could have it if I rap it wasn't passive took my chances opportunities came I grabbed them and everytime I'm on stage they screamed like a fanatic can you imagine a life without sadness you can hear that on my last album I imagined that my life was just studio time and I promote self so much I got it down to a science that's the grind, it takes time to blow up sign to a record label never be a bust have a hit single on iTunes for a buck and my streams on Spotify got me at number one and suddenly my passion means I also getting paid my songs on the radio and it’s always getting played but the only time that bae ever sees my face is through instgram live that they stream from backstage and the only good nights sleep I get is on a plane landed to hear fans yelling out my name my friends all texting me to say I've changed but they ain't see me enough to know the difference I make I imagined that the mission went in this direction and music became a passion that God used as a blessing and I finally went for it and let everything else go what could be I guess we will really never know

I’m tired of praying for safety and then living life so safely singing amazing grace with grace so amazing why do I keep it all to my self why am I restraining it shaped me it made me but did I let it change me or am I the same lame man they let down from the ceiling am I an instilling a faith that is willing or am I just repealing a calling that's wilting am I the seed that fell amongst the thistles expecting to grow but my efforts been little or am I the seed with the faith to move mountains On a path that's pursued with a purpose and passion i'm asking how to break off this chain from my ankles and let go of this weight cast off this shadow am I afraid I don't have what it takes to be brave though saying all this before I lay by my grave stone Lord, I will follow you wherever you lead me to oh. me and my girl we up for the challenge she's fire i'm ice that's how we found a balance that wound could be fatal who's bringing a bandage I have a heart for the lost the forsaken, abandoned the lonely, the hopeless, those searching, those stranded I just want to bring hope to an earth that is stagnate Only set goals let god decide what the plan is then spin the globe and go to every part of this planet I woke up in a sweat screaming words of panic my dreams became nightmares I turned lazy from the lavish my mannerisms masked all emotions I've hidden but if I believe I proclaim it Jesus is risen I just pray my desires my dreams, my obsessions will glorify God or he'd remove them as lesssons I begging my heart to beat as hard as this rhythm for a mission to reach all those in need of his freedom you gave your life, I got life in return so if i give my life there’s no worry of burden what do i gain if I gain it all? All can feel small when faced with this call and I can tell by the words they wont say they feel bothered like walk down that path you could end up a martyr continue on farther they'll forget what you started and you'll just be begging for money burnt out and exhausted or worse you'll start acting like political figures and speak a lot of promises you never deliver sometimes i feel like an amputee crippled by the ill will and lies that i bought my self into I just want to live for Jesus and leave this Life of empty pieces behind me believing I’m seeking a hope beyond all these hollow views praying wherever your leading i will follow through